Inept Etude

Well! I was going to post something at Mel's Spontazity, but traffic is as moot / mute there as here, so it doesn't matter. I admit up front, my vocabulary is short.

"inept etude" came up in my head out of nowhere. I wish I could hotwire a thesaurus into my brain, but for now, dictionary on arm of chair.

inept - unskillful, absurd, silly, out of place. (ineptitude)
etude - musical composition designed to improve the technique of the player

Though my L. protests, I am tone deaf, and I could use an etude to lose my ineptitude!

I'm in the middle of a day,
padding ncr contracts
or tablets in 100s, fifties;

breaking for shrinkwrapping,
boxing, shipping.

data entry to places I've never been.

I used to think I stay here to avoid
seeing how inept
I am in a better world.

If only I had a life,
a life a big design,

giving me technique,
or a lividness in spontanaeity

that makes me game
for beyond bit-
player;

but come to thank about it,
I'd rather be a character poet

than a one-time Oscar-equivalent
composer of a poem

lying dusty in an obscure
(prevalent for a period)

composition more zine

than scene.